My ultimate goal weight reward has been decided.

I am 17.9kg away from my ultimate goal of 65kg. My reward for this goal is something quite major for me. It will change me completely and make me so much more confident and happier. Obviously losing 40.5kg will do a reward in itself but I am after more than that. I'm not ready to share my reward yet, as it is quite personal but between now and September (when I plan to be at goal), I will be researching about it as much as I can. :)

What a day!

This morning I was woken by a text message from Liv (a friend from CC12C) saying 'yahoo for you'. I had no idea what she meant so she told me to check my emails and the CC12C page. After looking I found an email from Mish saying I was one of the finalists in 'making the impossible possible' video blog competition. How cool is that. I have never won one of the competitions on the 12wbt site before. And now the 12wbt members need to vote for their favourite video blog. If you want to vote for mine then you can do it here -

Vote for Nicole F in the video blog competition

My next lot of news is that it is also WWWW today :) I was super nervous all last night about weighing in this morning, I didn't sleep too well because of it. My water intake wasn't as good as it could have been for the whole week, my exercise effort was only about 70% and my food was about 75% so I was expecting a small gain. Instead I was surprised with a loss of 400grams. I am taking that and running :) So I'm now 82.9kg.

News #3 is I found a dress for the 12wbt finale :) :) :) :)

I have always dreaded clothes shopping, I found it depressing and such a chore, I always just wanted to get into the shop and get out as soon as I can. I hardly ever tried anything on and 'just hoped for the best' when I got it home.

Well that has now changed. Today I had an absolute ball spending hours looking through gorgeous dresses ...and trying them all on. While some looked a bit plain or just not right, I didn't care. The fact that I actually took them off the rack from the 'normal sized' section made me feel amazing.

My choices were cut down from 6 dresses down to 2 and I still love the 'runner up' dress, however, the winning one made me feel so comfortable and on top of the world. I adore it. I might still go back for the 'runner up' just to have in my wardrobe.

Todays shopping adventure has really nudged me back into top gear to get to my goal. I can now see a clothes shopping addiction coming soon :)

Weight in time ....again !

Just as I thought I had a gain this week, it wasn't a big gain (300grams) and I am ok with it. I mean I did this to myself noone else. I am definitely owning it and I am moving on now. I weighed in at 83.3kg.

                                         This picture definitely resembles my round of the 12WBT!

Ready to get back on track.

For a few days my mindset wasn't co-operating with me, my food choices were crap - actually I wasn't eating much at all but when I was, it was processed foods, I wasn't drinking any water and I definitely wasn't exercising. I had no energy, I felt blergh and I was making excuses after excuses. I hadn't made a menu plan for the last 2 weeks, I was just 'winging' it for each meal. Today I have pulled myself out of my slump and I am fired up to get back on track now. I have made up the menu plan for the week and I am ready to go. I will get back to eating 1200 calories a day and I will be smashing out 500 calories a day with my training. I have decided not to focus on how many weeks are left in the 12wbt anymore, I am focussing on my journey as being a forever lifestyle change for good. I am reassessing my goals and I'm going back to basics in terms of setting smaller goals and rewards :)

My first goal is to be a 70s girl. I have been sitting in the 80s for far too long. I am now 2.1kgs away from 79.9kg. Being 79.9kg will also move me from being obese to overweight :)

I am expecting a slight gain on Wednesday but for now I am back on track.

I forgot to note down my weight from WWWW on the 11 April - 83kg. (400 gain)

I think I'm redeeming myself

Phew ! Today I walked and jogged my little legs off. I went on a 10km walk with some 12WBTers along an Aqueduck Trail in Pakenham. It is mainly a gravel track with a couple of hills. It took us about 1 hour 40 mins to complete and I smashed 860 calories away. When I got home I finished off some housework to make it to my 1000 target :) woo hoo. I was planning on mowing the lawns but the rain didn't let up today and I had to go to work so I was strapped for time anyway.

I love the duck (as it is know to the CC12C team) so much that I am taking the family there tomorrow for some last chance training :)

Today I also had a bit of fun playing with some photos and an iphone app I found and this is what I acame up with -

                                          The photo on the left was taken on our family cruise holiday
                                               in July 2011. I think I was about 106kg then.

                                         The photo on the right was taken on Saturday (7/4/12)
                                                                   and I weighed 82.6kg.

Easter 2012

I don't want to see another Hot cross bun ever again. I ate a few this weekend and I didn't enjoy them like I used too,  yet I kept going back for more :( Yesterday I had 3 (2 fruit and one plain) and last night when I went to bed I felt so sick and bloated. Today I had another plain one and I did enjoy it but I didn't really want it, I just ate it because it was there. Stupid hey ?!

My plan this Easter was to stay away from CB and Easter eggs and I did really well up until this weekend. Yesterday when I bought the kids a rabbit each (and some other pressies - Jeremy an itunes card, Hollie Twilight DVD and Callum nothing but I found some hidden sherbert at home), I also bought Clint and myself an egg each. Clint got a small cherry ripe one and I got a small crunchie one. I ate mine for breakfast, I think I just wanted it out of sight lol. It was nice but now I do regret eating it, especially as I am so close to 2 mini goals :/

I have a lot of work to do to get all that crap out of my system to have a loss on Wednesday morning.

I'm feeling really good today !

I always knew this weight loss thing would be hard work, hence me taking so long to get my arse into gear and for my mindset to be focused.  As a child I was solid and into my teens I was overweight, this continued into my adult life and moreso after having children.  I have tried many many programs before and had ok success within the first few weeks, but then it all fell apart very quickly. I either sabotaged myself with binges or I just got plan bored with the food I was having. However, I kept going back to diet after diet and pills and shakes were also appealing. At one stage I even looked into surgery, the only thing that stopped me was the financial cost of the operation and hospital stay. Now though I am so glad I didn't go down that path as I don't think it would have taught me anything about the right food choices, calories and portion sizes.

So once I found out about Michelle Bridges and her 12WBT program I pretty much knew I was onto a winner from the minute I signed up. I have NEVER lost the amount of weight I have before on any other program. I have said this before but I truly it has been successful because of the pre season tasks and the mindset lessons. In round 3 2011, (my first round) I got so much out of them all and I was blown away when I lost 16.8kg in that time. I was hoping to have the same KG lost results this round but that hasn't happened and I am sure that has everything to do with me being less organised this round and for letting my portion sizes get too big. My food choices have been great, it is just the sizes on my plate. I am focussing on that though. My exercise is really good and I am enjoying it, I have changed things around so it stops boredom before it hits. 

I do also owe a lot to my local 12wbt group - CC12C, these ladies are absolutely incredible, motivating and inspiring. It is so awesome to be able to hang out with people who have a common bond with me. It is so good to know that you are not the only one going through ups and downs relating to similar issues. These girls rock :) :)

So in saying all that, today I am feeling freaking awesome.

                                                     82.6kg - taken Easter Saturday 7/4/12
                                                                       22.6kg lost

Week 8 fitness test

 I got PBs all round :)
1km time trial - 6minutes 4seconds (1.03 faster)
Push ups (toes) - 10 (6 more)
Push ups (knees) - 35 (21 more)
Sit & Reach - +17 (12 more)
Wall Sit - 57 seconds (32 sec more)
Abdominal Strength - 1 (1 more)

Happy Easter to everyone and try not to over indulge too much on the chocolate and hot cross buns :)

Milestone Week 8 - weigh in and measure up

I had a 1.2kg LOSS this week, I am so happy with that result after the last month's results being dismal. Hopefully now I am back on track and I can finish this round much stronger. So I'm now weighing 82.6kg and in total I have lost 22.9kg. I am still much further behind than I wanted to be in terms of weight loss for this time frame, but I figure at least I haven't given up :)

I did my measurements this morning -
Chest - 104cm
Waist - 96cm
Hips - 113cm
Thigh L - 60cm
Thigh R - 59cm
Arm L - 30cm
Arm R - 29cm

Since starting round 1 2012 I have lost 35cm from my body. From starting round 3 2011 I have lost 59cm.

Doing the calculations it seems so far I have lost more kgs in round 3 but more CMs in round 1.

4 weeks worth of weights

Oppsy I just realised I haven't been adding my weights on here each week. They haven't been anything to rave about at all.

The last time I noted my weight done here it was on February 29th - 84.7kg. Then it followed with -

March 7th - 84.3kg
March 15th - 84.3kg
March 21st - 83.8kg
March 28th - 83.8kg

hmmmm there seems to be a pattern happening and I am not happy about it ! I am really hoping for a decent loss this week - for me that means more than 1kg.