end of 12wbt round 1 2012

Oppsy I got slack again :/
25th April - 82.9kg  loss of 400 grams.
2nd May - 82kg loss of 900 grams.
9th May - 83kg gain of 1kg :/
So I ended round 1 2012 at 82kg, for this round I lost a measly 4.3kg

Tomorrow is WWWW and I am not sure what to expect, for once I actually haven't stood on the scales several times a day every day this last week. I have had an up and down week, with only basic exercise and some crap choices. I'd be happy with just a tiny loss this week.

In other news I WON the video blog competition on the 12wbt site. I'm now stalking the postie for my $500 worth of Natures Way products :)


So now Round 1 2012 of 12WBT has come to an end and I can say I didn't have a very good round. Actually I would go as far as saying I bombed out. I haven't checked my goals that I set but I don't think I acheived any of them.

I seem to be chasing the same 3-4kg over the last 12 weeks. My 12 weeks went like this - loss, loss, gain, loss, same, loss, same, loss, gain, gain, loss and a loss. I guess this just shows how meast up my head was this round.

However, I'm not sitting here having a pity party! It has been my own doing and I need to get myself out of it. I need to own this whole 12+ weeks and move forward if I want to be able to reach my goals.

My fitness test was completed and I have improved overall. My results for this round are-

 I know I am much fitter today than I was back in September when I started my journey. I am much more happier than ever before. I need to be accountable to me and not everyone else around me. I need to get my focus back and I need to JFDI. And I have to realise that while it is all hard work it is so very much worth it. I am worth it.

I won't be signing up to Round 2 of the 12WBT but I most certainly will be continuing my journey. I am going to be putting less pressure on myself though. Of course I do want to reach my goal weight of 65kg by September but if I don't have good weeks I am not going to punish myself.


                                                             Taken 5th May 2012- 82kg
                                                             total loss of 23.5kg.

My ultimate goal weight reward has been decided.

I am 17.9kg away from my ultimate goal of 65kg. My reward for this goal is something quite major for me. It will change me completely and make me so much more confident and happier. Obviously losing 40.5kg will do a reward in itself but I am after more than that. I'm not ready to share my reward yet, as it is quite personal but between now and September (when I plan to be at goal), I will be researching about it as much as I can. :)

What a day!

This morning I was woken by a text message from Liv (a friend from CC12C) saying 'yahoo for you'. I had no idea what she meant so she told me to check my emails and the CC12C page. After looking I found an email from Mish saying I was one of the finalists in 'making the impossible possible' video blog competition. How cool is that. I have never won one of the competitions on the 12wbt site before. And now the 12wbt members need to vote for their favourite video blog. If you want to vote for mine then you can do it here -

Vote for Nicole F in the video blog competition

My next lot of news is that it is also WWWW today :) I was super nervous all last night about weighing in this morning, I didn't sleep too well because of it. My water intake wasn't as good as it could have been for the whole week, my exercise effort was only about 70% and my food was about 75% so I was expecting a small gain. Instead I was surprised with a loss of 400grams. I am taking that and running :) So I'm now 82.9kg.

News #3 is I found a dress for the 12wbt finale :) :) :) :)

I have always dreaded clothes shopping, I found it depressing and such a chore, I always just wanted to get into the shop and get out as soon as I can. I hardly ever tried anything on and 'just hoped for the best' when I got it home.

Well that has now changed. Today I had an absolute ball spending hours looking through gorgeous dresses ...and trying them all on. While some looked a bit plain or just not right, I didn't care. The fact that I actually took them off the rack from the 'normal sized' section made me feel amazing.

My choices were cut down from 6 dresses down to 2 and I still love the 'runner up' dress, however, the winning one made me feel so comfortable and on top of the world. I adore it. I might still go back for the 'runner up' just to have in my wardrobe.

Todays shopping adventure has really nudged me back into top gear to get to my goal. I can now see a clothes shopping addiction coming soon :)

Weight in time ....again !

Just as I thought I had a gain this week, it wasn't a big gain (300grams) and I am ok with it. I mean I did this to myself noone else. I am definitely owning it and I am moving on now. I weighed in at 83.3kg.

                                         This picture definitely resembles my round of the 12WBT!

Ready to get back on track.

For a few days my mindset wasn't co-operating with me, my food choices were crap - actually I wasn't eating much at all but when I was, it was processed foods, I wasn't drinking any water and I definitely wasn't exercising. I had no energy, I felt blergh and I was making excuses after excuses. I hadn't made a menu plan for the last 2 weeks, I was just 'winging' it for each meal. Today I have pulled myself out of my slump and I am fired up to get back on track now. I have made up the menu plan for the week and I am ready to go. I will get back to eating 1200 calories a day and I will be smashing out 500 calories a day with my training. I have decided not to focus on how many weeks are left in the 12wbt anymore, I am focussing on my journey as being a forever lifestyle change for good. I am reassessing my goals and I'm going back to basics in terms of setting smaller goals and rewards :)

My first goal is to be a 70s girl. I have been sitting in the 80s for far too long. I am now 2.1kgs away from 79.9kg. Being 79.9kg will also move me from being obese to overweight :)

I am expecting a slight gain on Wednesday but for now I am back on track.

I forgot to note down my weight from WWWW on the 11 April - 83kg. (400 gain)

I think I'm redeeming myself

Phew ! Today I walked and jogged my little legs off. I went on a 10km walk with some 12WBTers along an Aqueduck Trail in Pakenham. It is mainly a gravel track with a couple of hills. It took us about 1 hour 40 mins to complete and I smashed 860 calories away. When I got home I finished off some housework to make it to my 1000 target :) woo hoo. I was planning on mowing the lawns but the rain didn't let up today and I had to go to work so I was strapped for time anyway.

I love the duck (as it is know to the CC12C team) so much that I am taking the family there tomorrow for some last chance training :)

Today I also had a bit of fun playing with some photos and an iphone app I found and this is what I acame up with -

                                          The photo on the left was taken on our family cruise holiday
                                               in July 2011. I think I was about 106kg then.

                                         The photo on the right was taken on Saturday (7/4/12)
                                                                   and I weighed 82.6kg.

Easter 2012

I don't want to see another Hot cross bun ever again. I ate a few this weekend and I didn't enjoy them like I used too,  yet I kept going back for more :( Yesterday I had 3 (2 fruit and one plain) and last night when I went to bed I felt so sick and bloated. Today I had another plain one and I did enjoy it but I didn't really want it, I just ate it because it was there. Stupid hey ?!

My plan this Easter was to stay away from CB and Easter eggs and I did really well up until this weekend. Yesterday when I bought the kids a rabbit each (and some other pressies - Jeremy an itunes card, Hollie Twilight DVD and Callum nothing but I found some hidden sherbert at home), I also bought Clint and myself an egg each. Clint got a small cherry ripe one and I got a small crunchie one. I ate mine for breakfast, I think I just wanted it out of sight lol. It was nice but now I do regret eating it, especially as I am so close to 2 mini goals :/

I have a lot of work to do to get all that crap out of my system to have a loss on Wednesday morning.